this view makes me remember something
                                                                F.R.I.E.N.D

The never ending pain,
Continues to pour down like rain,
I used to try to keep it away,
But even then, it came back everyday
So now I sit alone and scared,
Knowing that no one ever cared,
I know you hated me,
And I know you couldn’t see,
See that every tease, every joke,
Was more than just a tiny poke,
To my heart, it was a big tear,
To my self-esteem, it’s like it was never there,
And I had a wish, just one,
That my life on earth, would soon be done.

No one understands me,
My life is very unknown.
Because everyone that knows me think that I’m ok.

But they don’t know the real me,
If they did they wouldn’t call me happy.
For if they knew me they would know,
That I am anything but happy.

The feelings in my soul are so demented and sad,
The only way I can let them out,
Is by writing this poem aren’t you glad.

My friends don’t understand me,
Neither does my family.
They say I’m just in a bad mood,
But they have no idea.

I’m always sad and cold inside,
They think I’m happy and glad.
If they only knew the way I feel,
Maybe they’d get why I’m always sad.

Some people call me depressed,
Others call me suicidal.
But I’m not suicidal yet,
I’m just always very sad.

Even if I may seem happy,
It’s just a cover I have.
The way I feel inside,
Is very, very bad.

So maybe this poem describes me,
Or maybe you just think I’m psycho.
But now at least you get a little bit of how I feel.

But you will never know me,
For I am the only one who gets me.
That is why I say,
No one understands me.

And I say that each and everyday.
No one understands me in any single way

menunggu,menunggu dan terus menunggu sesuatu yang belum pasti bisa aku miliki..rasanya macam nak teruskan perjalanan yang masih jauh ni tanpa perlu menunggu, atau diri ini dah ketinggalan..mungkin jugak diri ini dah jauh ketinggalan..adakah 'sinar' yang ku kejar selama ini memang betul dah jauh tinggalkan ku. patut ar aku heran kenapa cahaya yang sebelum ni terang kini semakin malap dan sikit masa lagi akan gelap..aku tak mampu untuk terus mengejar 'mu'.aku tak mampu..apa yang aku mampu ialah berjalan dengan penuh sabar..aku berdoa agar ketenangan sentiasa menyebelahi diri ini yang semakin lemah disebabkan tempat persinggahanku,insyaAllah...

bercrita pasal cinta....
aku tak pernah pon terniat nak jadi watak utama dalam crita 'cinta' ini..mengapa aku sering disalah anggap dikalangan HAWA yang pernah mengenaliku dan ingin mengenaliku..aku sendiri pon heran,dah tau perangai dan sikap aku ni buruk, masih lagi ingin bersama..aku betul2 tak faham ar HAWA ni..entah ar..susah mo cakap..cinta kepadaNYA je aku rasa dapat ketenangan bukan sahaja di dunia,di akhirat pon memang dah dijanjikanNYA tuk hambaNYA..